I’ve been dreaming about you lately. I wake up filled with guilt, missing a you that never was. I imagine the comfort of your arms, forgetting the discomfort I felt at the closeness, the emotional exhaustion of carrying the weight of the future, the sting and hurt of your betrayal.
And yet, at Christmas I think of you. I think of the way the lights from the tree reflected in such a warm glow in your eyes. We were laughing, trying to keep quiet while we worked away on last minute gifts well past midnight in Christmas Eve.
It was the last time I ever laughed with you.




